my life...

2006-11-11T13:48:00.000+08:00

helloz everyone...
o lvls started...
n i m in the middle of it...
going to end rather soon...
i will be waiting for the day...
20/11/0 6...
It will be the day wen 'o' lvls ends...
and i will celebrate with my sweetheart...
smiles...
oh yar...
carissa jie~
so hows your o lvls if u happen to read this post..
amelia meii~
no longer feel sad cuz u r cared n doted by mii smiles...
menn meii~
dun be angry with mii and go spent your days with your darling...
lol... this can really go on n on...
but no longer wans to go on n jus wan to end with...
Green Tea i jus want to say i love yoo!!!!

2006-10-22T18:20:00.000+08:00

hey... back from damnness... although i dunno wads that... jus made it up!!! =D...
aniwaes... 'o' lvls are comin... so gotta catch up on my work... Hearsay tat DEATHNOTE the movie is nice... perhaps gotta go catch the movie... smiles.. have to stop wriitin till nxt time... gotta go study study study...
love yar honey=D...

2006-10-15T17:41:00.000+08:00

hey!!!
so hows life to all of u...
some may feel dull n lifeless cuz of the 'o' lvls my friends.. some exams are like totally over and then are all relax and going shopping and goiing on outings... haix... sad life for mii... want to study but yet nothing goes in... lol.. actually jus nid a companion to study with to make mii tink btr....

yesterday or the day be4 yesterday... went to ben's ho birthday party... had a major hang over the next day... sounded fun yar? lol... firstly went to helped out... den played billard... den heard something like vodka is in the house... den i rushed out... took the whole bottle n shared with dennis... lol.. drank quite alot though... went into chaos mode shortly...

stripped left the boxers n jumped into the pool... inside stuck wif benedict, dennis and one of benedict's friends... swam a little, played, eat and went home.. reached home and bathed n slpt... normal lifestyle yar? nxt day guess wad...

MAJOR HANGOVER DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wonder hows wei liang doiin man...
his condition was like worst den mine... lol...
aniwaes... GOD BLESS EVERYONE!!!

lol...
i shall stop till here den... gotta go... nxt time... perhaps after o lvls or some other funny moments... pictures must get form wei liang..

2006-10-12T15:43:00.000+08:00

hey... i m back on the game.. tmr is benedict birthday... wonder wad to buy for him...
aniwaes today went to skol... skipped chinese intensive remediial.. quite fun actually. should do tat more often.. lol.. aniwae dandt lesson sucks... MR.POON teaching... wad the heck!!!
went off to break which is only like 5mins. but went to mac... n went back to class after abt 30mins.. lol...
aniwaes... still wondering wad will happen nxt wk... will be a gud wk to start preparing for o lvls? will it be a gud wk to start playIN?
will it???
haix...
wad a long life i have....
lol...
remain smiling...

2006-10-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

hey... days past like nobody business... hu the heck is the unknown... keep taggin my board... i dun even noe hu is tat person if he or she never even the name... lol... aniwaes... afew more days to 'O' levels... gotta work hard... need to concentrate... =D...

i will always remain smiling... cuz u taught mii smilling is the best way to make anyone your friend. a smile is a good beginning. lol... =D...

aniwaes... all of you exams over le... happy happy... lol... still... must work hard for ur upcomin exams... do not slack worx... dun wan u all to follow my footsteps...

Psle jus over... hope they did wel.. espacially my meiis... they must do well for their exams... smiles... want them to go into a good skol... not any kapalang skol... lol... =D...

okays... nid to go lerx... study study study...

2006-10-08T16:54:00.000+08:00

Is it over?!
or u are just playing with me?
okay.
fine.
Your sister said that.
Thats the end.
But i just want to know.
I want you to tell me yourself.
Thats all i want to know.
If you don't want thats fine with me.
I really don't mind.
will remain happy.
i don't want you to drag me down.
You are not the end of my life.
i will remain happy.
not cause i m happy that you leave me.
Just that i have promised you that i will be happy always.
goodbye.
As long as you are happy with it.
I will be happy with that.
-BYES-

2006-10-08T15:47:00.000+08:00

Today 08/10/06.
Sad.
Missing her.
Still in hospital i tink.
Suffering from food-poisoning, high fever from wad i heard.
Sad.
No longer can be happy.
Till she comes out.
I don't think i would be happy.
I can't say the word 'haix'.
Cuz i must not let her get worried about me.
I must smile often.
Can't let her know that i m sad.
"HAPPY!!!"

Waiting for her sms.
It's like a century till she reply one.
But i like to wait for you.
Cuz i love you.
Can't wait to hold your hand tightly.
And say "I LOVE YOU".
Right in your face.
But I m shy.
You are too.
My face will turn red.
As red as your blood.
Smiles.
I must remember to smile.
Cuz not to let you worry.

Love you my lao po.

2006-10-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

To the one in the hospital,
My faithful Laopo;

You are suffering
;I am enjoying.
You are under stress;
I am having fun.
You are sad;
I am happy.
I dun want that.
I want to share what i have;
Willing to exchange;
Your suffering with my joy.
I don't want to see you in the state like this.
Thousand of daggers piercing through my heart;
I feel hurt.
One after another.
Why must it be this way?
I always say that i will be right beside you when you need me;
Yet i am not there when you are sick.
I will always pray for you to recover;
So you can sms me.
Smiles.I miss you.
I don't want you to leave me just like that;
Without saying goodbye to me.
You are not so cruel;
I know you.
Although i may not be a perfect guy you have been searching for;
But I really hope that i will be one;
The one you have been searching for.
Because of you i changed.
I changed off my bad habits.
No longer have the old attitude.
I tried to be like you.
But it's impossible.
Cause you are the only one that can make me understand one thing;
Happiness.
Thats the thing that you have truly make me understand;
No one had made me understand that.
You make my day everytime you sms me.
You are the one;
The one that have the total control over my life.
You!
I want to shout it out from the mountain top."You are my one and only! I LOVE YOU!"

From the one that you made the day,
YOur dar dar Laogong =D.

2006-10-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

hey hey....today got abit sick... dunno y oso.... maybe cuz played basketball when i have a fever goiiin on... burning my forehead.... aniwaes... today went to plaza singapura with ezra n martien and chin hwee.... lol... watched ezra brought the expensive couple ring.... i dun tink i gonna get tat till next year barx....so Lao Po must wait for this poor Lao Gong to get u your ring... lol... dun worry.... i noe your favourite colour is black... smiles...

aniwaes guys do u all wanna c my dandt artifact???? its gonna rock your world cuz i ain't showing till i upload the letter tat i promise my Lao Po to upload.... i will upload both together barx... smiles...

aniwaes... not feelin too well... got a high fever too conquer... aniwaes... Lao po... y didn't u sms mii nerx? make mii quite worried abt u... but as long as u promise to be happy n healthy tats enuff for miii... smiles... aniwaes... i learnt a new lesson today... nv grab onto something too tightly... u must sometimes relax to give way to it.... smiles... if u all still dun get it tag my tagboard!!! lol... smiles..

love u n miss u lao po >.<... do remember to sms mii worx... aniwaes good luk to those havin their exams out there... dun worry dudes... i the great changed man will pray for u der worx.... >.<... lol....

2006-10-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

hi everyone... today did nothin in particular... went to skol as usual... waitin for my LP to sms mii... =D...smiles.. aniwaes went to skoll... den got to the assembly ground to sing and all... after tat... JIMMY KOH went on the BRIEFING abt the exams n stuffs...

after tat, went to amaths intensive remedials...=D... had quite some fun there with DEX n RYAN and all.. smiles... We talked alot of bullshit n Dex went on sayin sex sex sex....

Ryan n i talked abit on pedofiles and all... had some fun over there... =D... aniwaes... after tat went to eat... played POKER in the cafeteria.. lol... had fun... won some rounds... lose some rounds...

after tat went to chinese intensive remedials... had no wish to enter the LT... it smells and all... did a chinese compo... after tat went on wriitin my poem... lol... until now... played maple; auditionsea...

but the best thing was... i gOt the picture of my cheezy stuff for my LP lerx... must rmb come n look horx!!!

2006-10-03T16:16:00.000+08:00

hey all... long long long time nv come blog liao ler... =D... aniwaes... i found a really gud lao po... tat dotes on mii alot... lol... smiles... tats abt my life barx for the past few days... She really lovs miii alot...
smiles... i had wriiten a nice thing for my lao po... love u alot... =D.... check this out gal... =D....

lol... abit lame... oh yar... study hard for ur exams hor lao po... dun let mii si wang... =D... ur results are always better den mii derx... from comparison n estimation... =D.. er... tomolo i will post up the picture for u al to c wad i have wriiten for her.. =D..... gud luk to u guys n gals out there those hu r havin exams... =D...

MOST OF ALL!!! IMPORTANT IMPORTANT!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HHAZELL MEII MEII!!!
from here i hope tat u will be happy always!!! smiles...=D!!!

2006-09-30T08:26:00.000+08:00

Woah~~~ i got A2 for Emaths... the only one... lol... but there are 3 A1... - . - |||... lol.... the felix sia... got the highest marks for paper 1... 77.5/80!!! he got the highest in the whole sec 4 express n5 normal level... how i wished i was him... lol... Next was brian... he scored quite high for paper 2 n paper 1... so he got the highest in our class... i got B4 for amaths!!! 64.5!! wad the heck... hope tat it moderates n help mii get a B3 so wun be so dangerous... for chinese, i onli got a B4 hope tat it moderates to B3 too... smiles.... But english... i got C6... Ms Seah says tat she will help mii moderate one more marks... so tat i can get a C5 for english... =D... For both combined Science n Humanities, i got E8 for both... wa liao.... maybe i did not understnad wad are they asking... so i failed both.... but actually... for science the subject that pulled mii down the most is CHEMISTRY... i tot i would at least just failed... but in the end? got 30+++... pulled my physics marks down oso... but i will really work hard to pass both of my papers in o lvl's... cuz i dun wanna go to poly... i wan go to a gud JC... but if Innova Jc is the only Jc i can go, i would rather go there den a poly..

DandT, i got a A2.... luckily my folio pulled mii up... got 100+... Ms tan say i must score at least a 70 for paper 2... den there is hope for an A1...

i m gonna work really hard n hope tat i will not screw up my o lvls... miss everyone... oh yar.. mozila firefox can listen to the music i put on my blog... so plz use internet explorer or something else... Gud luck for ur upcomin Exams... =D...smiles..

2006-09-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

hey... this is the picture i drawn... lol... but shaun still ahve not sent mii the pic yet... so cant upload... lol... this is my thoughts on postitive thinkin n negative thinkin... maybe puttin this up as my blogskin too... =D... lol... maybe larx... but now currenttly busy wif my academic life... goiin to go muggin n start preparing for my exams rather soon... sianx... lol... but nvm... i have great friends to keep my fire glowing in my heart to continue living... so now you all know y friends are important?! kk.... thanks for the comments made in my tagboard... miss everyone... =D>.

2006-09-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

The past few days i was feeling really really down... but now thanks to my meiis i manage to collect back my mood to get on with life... today actually wanted to try out the method tat my meiis thaught mii... lol... but too bad... it failed... haix... i went home feelin quite bad abt it... but tried out during the hang out with benedict ho at the bishan library... we were studyin amaths n emaths.. lol... den comes shaun sin... my kor... lol.. he came n we talked quite abit n started studying... den we did quite afew questions before starting to pack up n leave the library... i tried to stop using vulgarities... shaun n benedict ho said tat surprise sia... terence change sia.. lol... i was like yeah!! it worked out... lol... i must immediately tell my meii... lol... i quickly smsed to grace n cheryl meii.. but onli cherylmeii replied.. den i told her it worked out... den she said okay... tats a good start... =D... i laughed n said okay... den shaun kept disturbing mii, intends mii to say out vulgarities.. lol... =D... but seems quite fun for hi,... but i have to exert my self-control... i ren n ren n ren.... lol... n den i n ben went to toilet alone... guess wad... i told him wad i m goiin to do lata... i told him i m gonna write a journal/self-reflection thingy i will do everyday wen i m abt to slp...
in skol i managed to learn alot of stuff from my ss teacher... =D.. learnt how to answer different questions tat may comeout for ss... oh yar.. almost forgot... drew my intended blogskin... n draw "LIFE! SCREW" on my fingers... jus nice... 10 letters... lol... but i drew it the wrong wad lar... i took pictures of the my fingers.. will be uploaded soon... =D... n i want the new mii to reappear soon... WATCH OUT FOR THE NEW MIII!!! HERE I COME!!!

2006-09-24T18:34:00.000+08:00

haix...
another day...
another beginning...
wad the hell...
stupid beginnings...
those r jus fakes...
they are not new beginings...
those are jus purely a continuation of wad u have ended yesterday...
all i wanted is jus to let this continuation to end...
but yet so many ppl over-reacted to my reaction to deal wif my life...
they all dun wan mii to die..
but yet hurt mii over n over again...
i dun wan tat to happen...
everytime tat happens over n over again...
my heart cant take it anymore...
i tink i will end my life if i ever get hurt again...
cuz it is a very terrible experience...
it will take ur time to tink over wad did u do to have this kind of outcome...
but u jus cant tink of tat..
u will end up wasting ur time...
get over-reacted...
n lose alot of friends in the process...
all these friends are much more worth den those precious 'love' thingy u have out there...
it sucks man...
i dun wan lose anymore friends becuz of the word 'love'...
'love' is a word tat describes all devilology in this mortal world...
i have to hate 'love'...

2006-09-23T22:31:00.000+08:00

haix... today another depressing day... haix...

actually wanted to stay at my uncle house... but now... i dun tink so i wan to stay... lol... maybe another day... if i stay at my uncle house... i will be playin com non-stop... cant study much... o lvl comin liao... haix... y mus there be examinations... wad the hell... nid to study study.... haix.... today abit bored.. went to CWP... wanted to play ghost squad there... but... there use different card... haix... made my mood worse... called toad when i reach home... he eatin den call mii not to call him until at nite... haix... i was totallybored out... in my ownroom... blasting songs...

oh yar... downloaded quite alot DragonForce, From first to last, Funeral for a Friend, jesse mccartney, Kreator, Slayer, Stacie Orrico, Trivium, Wintersun, as i lay dying, and many many more... all the songs all not bad... listen until i slp cuz very tired so i jus knockout for a few hours... woke up at aound 8 barx... lol... den i called some friends... talked for awhile n started to hunt for food in the kitchen... ate 2 packets of maggie mee... curry one sia... delicious... lol...

n now... i m in this sacred room of mine... listening to songs... n wriitin my stupid f**ked up blog... lol.... but this blog rocks... my first accomplishment... lol... okiies... i guess i have to slp early today... cuz this few days chiong maple n downloading movies... not enuff slp... lol.. so gud luk to those out there viewing my blog, gud luk to ur prelims n 'o's and exams...

2006-09-23T02:11:00.000+08:00

haix... today abit bored... so nothin much to wriite.. stayed at my uncle house the whole day... played games n games n more games... aniwae... called toad at nite... talked till abt 1am barx.. if i m not wrong... oh yar... dunno whether isit alright if i share this with all my fellow blog viewers.... D 'BOOM' E... lol... i bet u all dunno wads tat... but sooner or lata... lol... haix... i should not laugh at other ppl misfortune.. but... D really changed alot... alot.. more den i have realised after E told mii... haix... i tot tat they were a perfect couple.. Yet they jus 'BOOM'.. everythin is jus over through one fone call... haix... wads is this world comin to... wad is love? wad does love represent? many ppl jus dun get it...

2006-09-22T14:56:00.000+08:00

surprisingly... i passed through the tribute of death... i almost fell off the building yesterday nite... but suddenly... tot of someone tat flashed through my mind... den my heart told mii... "don't die... u have something to live for..." i woke up from my thoughts n got off the parapet... i walked back into my house n took a cold bath... haix... today no skol at all... even if there is i dun feel like goiin... haix... i really felt like dying now... jus waiting for time to pass through my life... time waits for no one...

aniwae... still feelin really down as usual... i nv show my true expressions to anyone... i m jus someone tat shows fake expressions in front of friends n family... but for my love i express my true feelings to u... haix... played maple... had a little KSing here n dere... haix... maple is no longer my cup of tea... aniwae... went to go online on msn at abt 1pm... wanted to go play Ghost Squad de... but i cant solo for nuts!!!!

haix... perhaps tats not my game too... haix... i feel tat i m useless... cant do anythin to change the fate of my life... really hoped tat i would jus slp off n leave the world unknowingly... so i would leave peacefullly... leavin all thoughts in this mortal world... haix...

kkayes... i will try to keep on living... cuz now i have a new purpose in life... (tryin to smile but cant...)

2006-09-21T22:13:00.000+08:00

haix... y must i always be the one that suffers... y must i always get scolded... y must i be the one tat get scolded wen i actually did nothin at all... today... woke up at 6.30am... tot it was a oerfect day to start with... went to play maple until abt 8.30am... haix... it was like quite a enjoyable experience toplay like this once in a while be4 the last paper of ur prelims... lol... ran out of my uncle house... feelin quite happy as i leveled up finally... walked to my grandma house to change into my school-uni. wanted to meet ben ho at PP mac to have our last minute revision of amaths be4 exams...

---after the amaths exam---
i walked out of the hall feelin tat a huge stone has been removed from my heart... YES!!!! finally my last paper of my prelims... lol... went home straight away to change n go to my uncle house to play games... at abt 5, left the house, went to TPY to meet shaun. haix... played Ghost Squad like siao... long time play the whole game until nv die liao lerx... lol..... it was quite enjoyale until my mother, uncle start miss callin mii9 n sendin endless messages...

my mum tell mii to wait for her at the TPY swimming pool outside... I was feelin f***ked up obviously as it was the last day of my prelims and all i want is a little unwinding onli... haix... scolded by mother in the car like mad... den my mother start4ed crying... i was really sorry.. but the word SORRY jus cant get out of my mouth... i remained silent... my mother told my father tat she wanted to be alone n my father jus dropped my mother at one place before heading home.. WAD THE HELL WAS TAT FOR!!! i dropped down too worried abt my mom... i walked silently behind her... kept a distance from her... i smsed to my closest friends tat this is my last message to them,... i hoped someone can decipher my message to them tat i was depressed... NO ONE KNOWS HOW TO DECIPHER THESE KIND OF MESSAGE.... lata we took a bus from bishan there( if i was not wrong, it was outside ben ho house) all the way to Yishun...

from Yishun, we took the MRT to Woodlands... haix... i slowly walked back to home as my mother said she had enuff of mii following her... i walked especially slow n looked up in the sky... i switched off my fone as i dun wan to have any disturbance... i went running at the VISTA PARK... ran 2 rounds n sprint the last round to unwind.... haix....

after tat i stilldun wan to go home... so i went to slp at the playground jus beneath my HDB block... hu noes.... my mother found mii sleepin thereat abt 9.50pm... haix... i tot no one can find mii... i was so foolish... since everyone hates mii... dislikes mii.... HOPE TAT I WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD!!!! i wight as well die.... i really have no wishes to leave anymore... no one else can stop mii.... i really wished to die this very last second...

NOW I M STUCK IN THIS F**KING ROOM N WRIITING THIS USELESS THOUGHTS OF MINE TO THIS DAMNED BLOG...

how i wished tat i would die now....
-bb guys-
dun follow my footsteps... cherish your family now or u will regret. jue like mii... this may be the last post u would see in this blog...

☆听妈妈的话☆

2006-09-21T08:11:00.000+08:00

小朋友你是否有很多顽抗
为什么别人在那看漫画
我却在学画画
对这钢琴说话别人在玩游戏
我却在躲在家背abc
我说我要一架大大的飞机
我却得到一只旧旧螺旋机
为什么要听妈妈的话
长大后你就会开始懂得这段话
长大后我开始明白
为什么我跑得比别人快
飞得比别人高
将来大家看的都是我画的漫画
大家唱的都是我写的歌
妈妈的心她不让你看见
温暖的事都在她心里面
有空就得多摸摸她的手
把手牵着一起梦游
听妈妈的话别让她受伤
想快快长大才能保护她
美丽的白发幸福中发芽
天使的魔法温暖中慈祥
在你的未来音乐是你的王牌
那王牌谈的恋爱
而我不想把你教坏
还是听妈妈的话吧
晚年再恋爱吧
我知道你未来的路
干嘛比我更清楚
你因为太多学习的同学在这块写东写西
但我建议最好听妈妈我会用功读书
用功读书怎么会从我嘴巴说出
不想你输所以要叫你用功读书
妈妈挑给你的毛病你要好好的收着
因为不知道是我要告诉她我还留着
对了我会遇到我
所以你对跟同学炫耀赌神未来是你爸爸
我找不到你写的情书
你喜欢的要承认因为我会了解你会在操场上牵她
你会开始喜欢唱流行歌
因为张学友开始准备唱吻别
听妈妈的话别让她受伤
想快快长大才能保护她
美丽的白发幸福总发芽
天使的魔法温暖中慈祥
听妈妈的话别让她受伤
想快快长大才能保护她
长大后我开始明白为什么我
跑得比别人快飞得比别人高
将来大家看的都是我画的漫画
大家唱的都是我写的歌
妈妈的心她不让你看见
温暖的事都在她心里面
有空就得多摸摸她的手
把手牵着一起梦游
听妈妈的话别让她受伤
想快快长大才能保护
她美丽的白发幸福中发芽
天使的魔法温暖中慈祥...

2006-09-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

hihihi... back again with another interestin story... lol... no lar... today chem exam abit 'easy'... finished the whole paper in 25mins!!! lol... break record... aniwae after tat went to mac to eat... there happen the insultin of races again... lol... With eugene... nothin gud can come out frm his mouth.... although he claimed tat he is changed... but i dun tink so... lol... argued with wei liang today be4 morning assembly... lol... funny sia... they all argue like nobody business...

aniwae back to mac... shafiq was imaginin to be a suicide bomber again... lol... damn funny... took my tea cup n my used sugar packs n milk packs... imaginin things again... guess wad eugene said? he said once a suicide bomber always a suicide bomber... lol...

haix... went home den went back to skol to find ben ho.... went to his house... damn funny.... the cat so cute... but not used to havin strangers around... if not fun onli... lol... den first time listen to ben ho played piano... played the first part of THOUSAND MILES!!! it was like such a great acomplishment larx... lol...

but haix.... i noe i cant do it... lol.... aniwae went to bishan library to study... another funny thing happened... we talked so loudly yet no libarian came to scold us... lol... den nicholas chua came to study wif us in the end came to talk cock... lol... i made funy jokes n they cant concentrate... lol... they laugh until face all turn red red... lol...

BUT BEN HO MOUTH OPEN BIGGER DEN USUAL!!! HE LAUGH UNTIL STOMACH CRAMP!!!

haix...

lata wen to play ghost squad with shaun.... ksed him like no kick.... lol... got a new gun... i tink machine gun... lol... damn fun... by points was like damn high lar... he was like halfway onli... lol... haix... but went home after tat shortly... lol... not enuff money to play...

studied quite alot on amaths... learned alot through the process...

=D... gud luk guys to those takin prelims paper tomolo... =D...

2006-09-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

lol... today went to the bishan library with benedict ho... lol... went to study chemistry which is my worse subject.... lol... tmr test no hope liao lerx... comfirm fail derx... haix... i studied onli the organic chemistry part n using my common sense, i tink there is a little hope if my common sense worked tmr.. haix...

oh yar... continue abt the library part... stupid siax..... the library was over-crowded wen i reached there abt 5pm... Benedict was over there doiin dandt... i admire n was abit jealous abt his folio... lol... it was like how i wished my folio was as gud as his... lol... but i noe tat would not happen cuz i SUCK!!!!

after studyin till 7, we went to eat at J8 foodcourt... benedict went to order food first... i waited... n waited... n waited... lol.. he walked back empty handed... haix... he said... could not make up his mind... i wgot up n went to order beef soup with rice... lol... quite delicious... Bloody hell benedict went to eat roti prata... lol....

Lata shaun came to study with us wen we returned to the library... the library was like very empty compared to the look of 5pm.. lol... really... the library was like so little population... den i n ben sat at one table n started studing...den at tat time... ben saw his church friien n said hi... i tink the gal was like deaf... cuz ben called her name RACHEL 4 times den she answered, hu called mii?! wad the heck, if i was ben, i would giv her one slap across the face... lol... jus kidding... how can i touch gals with force...

aniwae shaun came... we over theere started talkin abt wad happen the day be4 abt the libarian comin to reprimand us... lol... den the malay librarian came... speak of the devil... lol... we named her the terrorist of the library... hope she suicide bomb herself in the library one of these days...

we were eatin milk chocolate... lol... quite nice... den i almost forgot tat shaun has dabetics... yet he ate abt 1/4 of the whole large bar lerx... wad the heck... he said... dun care lar... i said... k lor... u die u dun find mii... is not my fault... lol... den lata we started talkin cock n couldn't concentrate on our studies... i managed to learn abit here n there frm ben... quite kool...

after the library closed, we went to the mac at j8 at abt 9 to study... quite funny there... shaun fone got ppl prankin him... lol... den we started diverting his calls to other ppl... funny sia.. haix.. but it was onli a moment of fun onli lorx... lata got bored n went home at abt 10... reached home at abt 10.30.. haix.... talked to shaun ferr awhile den he go slp lerx... i kind ppl so i decided not to disturb him any further... haix... boredness...

thinkin of someone right now... wondering if shes okay with her illness...lol... kkayes... got to go... gud luk for tomolo chem exams!!!

2006-09-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

haix.... f sia... play maple... stupid shaun pang seh mi again... haix.. say wan to train den in the end pang seh miii in EL Nath... haix... nvm.... i train by myself at yeti... lonely... haix...aniwae... stupid chem exam... why mus it be tmr... y cant it be... y not jus let it have no chem exam!!! gettin stressed up.... planning to get 20 points for L1R5... it seems like my plan isnt workin... lol... haix... cant concentrate on my studies liao lerx... I n guo bin were arguing on y languages are made to communicate n not to test on... haix... dunno y they make it so complicated... lol...

·$39Nerine ·$48- ·$46S·$36H·$8U·$33F·$31F·$39L·$48E·$63!·0 says:
we learn so much chim enlgish in the end i think like a maths like that, wun get to use one..

™®..:::{тєя}{єи¢є}:::..©™‹‹ þ£@¢K H@¡r Gäñ9 ›› " *Once.Gone.Can.Never.Come.Back.* -www.chaos-realms.blogspot.com- " says:
lol

·$39Nerine ·$48- ·$46S·$36H·$8U·$33F·$31F·$39L·$48E·$63!·0 says:
even for chin oso the only time i use chim chinese is durin exams...

lol...

this is wad we discussed... but there are more to tat... but accidentally closed the window... wad the heck... we complained abt MOE lol... haix...

aniwae... wish everyone luck tat is takin prelims this wk... lol...
=D... or should i say god bless?!
lol...

2006-09-19T01:33:00.000+08:00

look guys!!! i m still alive well n kickin... lol... i didn't die cuz i jus found another new purpose in life... =D... lol... although almost jumped out of the window... but nvm.. hu cares anyway... i m jus a person hu shares air, food, land,space on EARTH. And they might jus tink i m wastin them away... haix... i might as well die now... but cant... cuz i have found somethin worthy for mii to carry on livin... =D...

jus played 1hr of AUDITION... quite fun... it is a dancin online battle game.. quite fun... u have to hit the correct directional buttons den press on the spacebar. quite a challengin game for mii as i m in the cold room wif my fingers trembling.. lol... cant show out my true potential... lol.. aniwae won quite a few matches... lost some... cuz they r jus purely too pro!!! haix...

i tot i was the pro out there in the noob section... but i was wrong... trashed by a lvl 1... wad the hell she got 30 perfect lar... no misses n bad... wad the helll... how to win... i was like over there kbkb... but no choice i have to admit i lost to a lvl 1 kido... wad the hell... nvm... i learn from mistakes... so i will succeed in future in beating those pros out there!!! watch out pros here i come!!! lol... abit over dramatic hor...

aniwae... decided to put away my death problems aside first... den will continue to live on till something shatters my heart deeply till den the death thoughts will not reappear again... =D...

those promises i made to euu r no longer fake... they are real n i will not break dem ever again....
I PROMISE U!!!! BTR WATCH OUT FOR THE NEW MII!!!

2006-09-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

Haix.... today the amaths exam jia lat liao lerx... stupid sia... nv do the f***ked up binomial theroem qns... comfirm fail tat one... haix... cant get a A for both maths lerx... cant go to jc anymore if i continue to have this kind of result... wad can i do wen i m so stupid... haix... parents n family tells mii i was born smart... like to do things the short way.. but i still feel tat i m goiin one big round to answer my questions... maybe not enuff slp... thinkin of someone tat is probably not thinkin of mii now... WAD THE HELL M I THINKING ABOUT!!!! i m supposed to study right now... everythin talks later... but y m i feelin like this now? y do i feel so depressed lately although u all c a happy n irritating side of mii...

jus now at digital lab... i played maple... it sucks totally!!! died wen i was KSing... wad the hell... haix... supposed to be quite gud in KSing but now?... haix... maybe i m not in the right mind to play... but played Counter-Strike jus now... i tagged wif melvyn n played against jie jun n benedict lee.... both quite pro... owned us in de_dust2... but we owned dem back in fy_iceworld... lol... shortgun match... less den 2mins match over... lol.... a scary n yet exciting match... lol...

dandt is now totally screwed up over... now i have to concentrate on my other subjects... CHEMISTRY!!! OH NO!!! comfirm fail liaox... cuz i dunno a single thing wad chem yeo taught... haix... under stress... although u c mii like no stress but truely, i m stress.. lol....

guess tat shows how my life pass by today... supposed to get an answer by today but nothin came out... i guess SHE totally forgot abt mii barx... haix... maybe we r not even fated to be together barx... haix... but nevermind... i m waiting for another answer... waiting for someone important... tat may help mii to continue livin... may help mii to have a new purpose in life...

i tink tats all until 8pm... haix... hope i would still be alive after tat...
=X.... gud day guys..

2006-09-17T20:05:00.000+08:00

fixed liao lerx... my music on my blog... finally siax... aniwae... went to the ntuc income shit... got 100 dollars for achievement award siax... lol... but not for spending... is for academic uses nia... sianxz sia... tot can use the money... lol... aniwae carrisa jie jie... i noe i owe u alot of chupa chups... but dun nid say until so big in my friendster testimonials riite... lol... haix... my studying of amaths isonli halfway through!!!!!! wad is goiin to happen to mii tomolo... i droppin relative velocity for sure... tat topic sucks for mii sia... lol... comfirm cant get A1 for amaths lerx... sianx... today at the ntuc shit... heard alot of funny names... but got quite a few chio-bus there... managed to get a few numbers... lol... not bad sia... i still got the charm to get numbers... haix... today unlucky day.. stepped on dog shit... wad the hell... i cant believe it... aniwae i blasted atreyu songs in my mp3 in the ntuc presentation thing... lol... everyone was l0ookin at mii... i stared back n they turned around... lol... funny expressions they gave mii.. haix... now boredness is gonna kill mii while studying alone... i cant concentrate cuz i m tinkin of HER! wad the hell... cant seem to forget HER!!! maybe i m not gud enough for her... haix... k larx... i got to study lerx... my mother is gonna scew miii upside down wen she finds mii in the room using com... lol...
haix... now is at nite lerx... so little ppl online sia... lol... tmr havin amaths prelims n right here i m wriitin blog... lol.. contradicting rite? suppose to study yet i m playin... lol... kkayes... gotta slp soon.. haix... have to catch some slp be4 i slp during the exams...

2006-09-17T11:05:00.000+08:00

wa liao... today jus make blog... waste my time sia... got so many thing to change... nb... haix... today so sianx... must go here go there... wake up at 7.50... nb... yesterday toad nv call mii to call him... maybe he's too tired barx... haix... nvm... i today abit siao... bang into wall 3 times!!!!... my hand have not recovered from the burn yet... ugly marks sia... cuttin my wrist doesn't work out!!! how? i dun noe wad to do wit her anymore... feel like suicidin... anyway i jus have to wait for another day to wait for the answer... if the answer is wad i do not wished to here... death maybe my only way out... =X...
oh ya... yesterday i n ben ho was study with his neighbour sia... lol... den lata toad came n disrupted the peace tat was there in the library... lol... but quite fun... managed to do abt 10qns... somewhere dere... reached home at abt 10.30pm... called someppl on the fone n talked till 12am!!! lol... interesting life nei...
lol... haix... thanks for the support tat u have given to mii during this wk... without u all i maybe having scars all over my bbody lerx... thanks....